So far...

Well I have a job interview tomorrow at 12:45 pm. According to my mom it'll be 2-3 days a week with the possibility of taking online classes and becoming a registered dietitian in a year or so. I guess I'll find out everything when I go in tomorrow.

The kids are behaving ok given the circumstances. Shalon is testing the waters and not being very obedient, partly due to being in a new environment, age, and being tired. Cutler is just Cutler. Likes to play. Wants to be outside constantly. Both kids are enjoying Moki (my parents dog) while I'm busy guarding my stuff so he doesn't mark it. I've already kicked him off my couch twice today. grrrr. Uncle Cameron and Alexis came over yesterday. I mowed my parents lawn for the first time in my life. Uncle Cameron gave the kids rides on the gator.

Never too late...

The kids and I moved to Oregon. We are currently living with my parents, who are being nice and helping us out for the time being. The trip was long but went ok. We drove thru Yellowstone and it was a free park day so that was nice! We saw a lot of buffalo and some elk. Susan (Wes' mom) let us borrow her scripture scouts tapes. We listened to them most of the way. It kept Shalon entertained and kept me from thinking about what was going on and bawling the whole way. We stayed with Laura, Bob, and Ava Saturday night. Laura's in-laws were nice and let us crash there. We watched the Boise State game. I was exhausted though and slept through the 4th quarter.

I saw a quote in Bobby's Mom's kitchen that has had me thinking the last few days. It said: "It's never too late to live Happily Ever After." It reminded me of a talk by Pres. Uchtdorf (I love his talks) Your Happily Ever After. We all have trials. We can't change that but we can control our attitude and reaction to situations. Even in fairy tales they had trials before they lived happily ever after.

I don't know what my happily ever after is. People have the ability to change. I am still hoping for Wes but if not, I can still live happily ever after...

Moving Day...

Moving day fast approaches unless something unforeseen happens (I am praying for a miracle. However, just as in the case of Alma the Younger with his father and the church fasting and praying for him, nowhere does it say how long they waited for that miracle to come to pass. Once again agency comes into play...) Am I ready? No. (Although my house is mostly packed up) I don't want to leave... I feel like Wyoming is home... I don't want to say goodbye to my friends and family... What do I tell my kids?... How do I not breakdown?... Nothing is final, I can change my mind right?... But, do I want things to stay the way they currently are, in limbo?... Grow up, Wendy. Be a big girl and take a step with a giant leap of faith that Heavenly Father will look after you. On the upside I think I have a job when I get to Oregon...

A quote I have been thinking about tonight is this...
"Perhaps the greatest charity comes when we are kind to each other, when we don't judge or categorize someone else, when we simply give each other the benefit of the doubt or remain quiet. Charity is accepting someone's differences, weaknesses, and shortcomings; having patience with someone who has let us down; or resisting the impulse to become offended when someone doesn't handle something the way we might have hoped. Charity is refusing to take advantage of another's weakness and being willing to forgive someone who has hurt us. Charity is expecting the best of each other." -Elder Marvin J. Ashton

P.S. I will probably post things that happened this summer but I will backdate them so that if I ever do get this into a book it'll be in the right order... Another thing my blog is probably going to get personal...

To Blog or Not to Blog

Many of you might wonder... Why haven't you been blogging? Well to be honest it has been a day to day struggle for me to want to get out of bed and take care of my kids let alone keep up on my blog and pretend that everything is good and happy in my life.

Life is interesting... One day you think everything is fine and the next day it completely sucks and you wonder what happened? What happened to the perfect life I thought I should have? What happened to the wonderful summer I had planned? What happened to all my dreams, hopes, and aspirations?

We don't get to choose the trials we go through. Some are caused by our own stupidity and some because of the stupidity aka agency of others. This summer has been a learning experience for me. Definitely not one I would choose or wish upon anyone (well maybe one or two people if I were to be really honest). I am trying to be optimistic but can I just say it's hard and and frustrating not to get what you want? Being given no options but the one you don't want to take?

I have learned how to really pray, to be specific in prayer. I have learned what faith and hope really mean (excellent talk worth reading The Infinite Power of Hope by Pres. Uchtdorf). I have learned what agency really is. I have learned to trust in my Heavenly Father because He won't let me down. I have learned to read my scriptures daily especially with a pen and paper in hand. I have learned to write in a journal to relieve frustration and see how far I've come. I have learned the importance of keeping all the commandments especially the little ones. I am learning patience and that I don't have much.

I love this quote by President Hinckley and feel it is so applicable.
"Faith in something greater than ourselves enables us to do what we have said we'll do, to press forward when we are tired or hurt or afraid, to keep going when the challenge seems overwhelming and the course is entirely uncertain."

So going back to blog or not to blog. I will get there and start up again. How soon remains to be seen...